Feliz Cumpleanos Madre

Solamente queria saludare y felizitare a mi madre bonita de cumplir ano. Te amo mama.

Swingers

I remember the first time I saw the movie Swingers, it was at the Yale Freshperson's Conference during the "Movie Night" in an outdoor covered assembly hall. This is where I made the acquantaince of a short girl from Texas. Irene was fighting with me from the moment we met both in terrible pain, her her back me my whole body. It was a bond of pain and a bit of competitiveness, namely who hurt more. Damn I thought I haven't started Yale yet but I"m already competing but over pain? Anyways, this movie was one of those that you remember for being there at that time. It was my I'm going to be a Yalie movie, " I was so money, Yale's this little bunny and I"m this Bear with CLAWS, thinking to myself what to do, how do I kill this bunny, and I"m so Money. " I was in so much pain, how could I be money. Looking back I think I did tear up Yale with my claws, but I may have been a bit over zealous at my clawing to fully appreciate the bunny. I miss the bunny, but baby, I'm so money. But the thing that permiates my memory of Swinger more that anything is the loner feeling I got from the main characters, even though they got their friends they still are loners. I am a loner in so many ways, that akward guy in the movie. I sometime wish to live on a mountain away from everyone in the world, but then I realize that other people make this world intresting. I wonder why we get these contradictory view of life, is it desires, chemical imbalances, or just plain frustration over the sometimes overwhelming sensation that life seems to be. But at the end of the Matrix and the end of Swingers they point it out for you, its perseption. Its how you look at it, get over your shit and look forward try to make the best out of it (like the Wasaski brother that's turning into a girl) wierd but if look at it as him be coming happy its easier to swallow.

Ok I know I haven't posted regualary and that this stuff has been a bit out there "streaming thought" I will try to make this more readable, about politics, Chicanismo, and other more worthwhile topics other than memories that are brought back by movies and the moral or meaning behind my own memories. Paz

PS- the movie's ending now and I almost forgot the most important meaning of the movie which the MAtrix lacked. Dance!! It is the meaning of life, infused into the action of life, with its symbolic meaning to proclaim, accentuate, and recreate life. Damn I love to dance. Swing, baby Swing, Go Daddy O'!!