Over it

I've been struck by the saying that Obama pulled from the bible during his inauguration, "It is time to put childish things aside." These last few weeks have been very destructive to my spirit on a number of levels. Almost all of the tangible foundations of the last 15 years in my life have in less than 25 day been destroyed and altered beyond what I can comprehend. The doors that made those times in my life exciting, enjoyable and at times profound have crumbled to pieces. Signs of their collapse has been evident for sometime and not unexpected but the pillars falling so quickly so abruptly has unsettled the very core of my being. The past has wilted away to a sliver of nostalgia and regret. So my morbid mind and soul lament the guiding lights of my youth, the page turns with my eyes full of tears at what forever is lost.

To mourn the past I plan to let go of my attachments to it, the unrealistic nostalgic pipe dreams that feel at once uplifting and heavy to my soul. So I'm done with it and with some many things of before but now serve no purpose, I'm over it.

Hootie & Blowfish - Time
Time, why you punish me?
Like a wave bashing into the shore
You wash away my dreams.

Time, why you walk away?
Like a friend with somewhere to go
You left me crying

Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
Cause tomorrow's just another day
And i don't believe in time

Time, i don't understand
Children killing in the street
Dying for the color of red
Time, hey there red and blue
Wash them in the ocean, make them clean,
Maybe their mothers won't cry tonight

Can you teach me about tomorrow
All the pain and sorrow
Running free?
But tomorrow's just another day
And i don't believe in...

Time is wasting
Time is walking
You ain't no friend of mine
I don't know where i'm goin'
I think i'm out of my mind
Thinking about time

And if i die tomorrow, yeah
Just lay me down in sleep

Time, you left me standing there
Like a tree growing all alone
The wind just stripped me bare, stripped me bare
Time, the past has come and gone
The future's far away
Now only lasts for one second, one second
Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
'cause tomorrow's just another day
And i don't believe in time

Time, why you punish me?